My mom told me my sister said she misses me. The whole homesickness thing, as wildly romantic as it is, is something I've been trying to save for moments when I, firstly, have absolutely nothing better to do and secondly, am prepared.
I want the whole Hollywood style homesickness shebang: wine, rain, carefully deconstructed clothing for in-room moping, a slightly obscure but likeable adult contemporary playlist and mayhaps, even, if God be so kind, a romantic prospect who'd call-- by way of freak psychic prowess which further proves that we are, indeed, soulmates-- at just about the beginning of the denouement of my melodrama to say, "hey, is everything alright? would you like me to come over?" to which of course I'd say no to but said romantic prospect will come over anyway which won't piss me off as it probably should and we'd have conversations about Life we'd think are deep and there'll be lines like "you are home to me" thrown around and lots of sensuous foreplay but probably not to the point of sex because I probably won't be in the mood so we'd go play in a fountain in the park to wash off the blue balls and not get arrested by rangers then laugh at our wet but weirdly immaculate looking selves in a hole in the wall equivalent of a Denny's.
So really, I don't think I'd get to ever let myself get homesick. So I guess I just have to say I'm kindof sortof homesick in a song and that is what I did right away.
Songs are great because they let you express emotions without having to appropriate them.
I talked to my sister on the phone this morning and I've said a lot of doozies in my life but I think "also, umm, can you, uhh, send me more pictures of the dogs?" should probably get a special citation. I turn into a quivering mush when I watch The Dog Whisperer, It's Me Or The Dog, Pet Star et al. I am now very well versed in the multitude of intonations one can make out of "aww." There is more to than just the one rise and fall, I tell you. I can get up to, like, 4.
I haven't been getting to watch Gossip Girl because my sister's really the one that gets me into it but I watched the finale and Gossip Girl's fun but it's a bit unhealthy for me because it reminds me how not young I am? Like, when you start making analogs of yourself and the people around you out of fictional high schoolers, y'know, at some point you just have to say, hey wait self, you crazy.
I'm still kind of new to this whole twentysomething thing and the whole "hey wait, dang, so I'm not the center of the universe?" unsettling realization that comes with it and I don't need fictional high schoolers rubbing their blissfully ignorant pre-Galilean states of mind in my face. Oh Galileo, you and your fangled devil scopes!